Torn at the seams.

Dear God
I miss him so much.

Over the past few months,
he became my everything & I became his.
And now he's gone,
taken completely away from me.
So here I sit, here I stand, here I sleep... alone.
Without him after so long of us being inseperable.
And it hurts like hell.

But now I think, he must feel the same way.
There he is, freedom completely taken away.
And though he might have a bunkie,
he, too, is... alone.
So together, we are alone in this.
Together, in spirit and together, because our hearts are intertwined and because through everything so far, he has left my side not one time. And I certainly will not leave his.
He is far too precious to me.

And now I realize that this seperation is not permanent and dare I go as far to say that it doesn't even exist.
Because I believe, for the first time in awhile, in love.
I believe that the past few months built both of us up so that we would be able to make it through this time.
No matter how long it's going to be.
He stayed right by my side throughout everything we have endured thus far and I refuse for this setback to be the reason as to why I leave his...

I feel alone, yes.
But the bonds of love remain strong and intact.
And I will forever stay by his side.
No matter what.

My thoughts, prayers and love go out to him, my Papi.
I hope and pray that you are okay and that you grow stronger everyday. I will come to you as soon as I can. I love you.