I seriously hate just about every goddamn person right now.
Especially the ones who claim to be "Christians" and especially those who call themselves "my friend".
Got news: You're not my friend and most likely, you never were.
I told so many of you over and over again that it is not good or safe for me to be alone; I cried out multiple times for help, for someone to be there with me as I walk through all of this shit... And not one single person responded in the way I needed them to. In fact, no one responded at all.
Because here I (still) am..... ALONE.
I am so incredibly upset right now. So upset, so hurt and so alone.
And that just is nottt the best thing for me right now.
Because I have some black licorice in my room right now...
All I have to do is warm it up, press on it and let it soak into my tastebuds.
I'm about to go into a food coma.
And I hope to God that I do NOT wake up.
I just wanted to say that I'm praying for you. Heather is my closest friend - I live in her home state - and you couldn't have a better girl by your side.
ReplyDeleteThank you, lady... This post was at a really bad time. And looking back on it, I was very selfish in how I viewed those around me. People wanted me to get help, but they couldn't be around me because I was so caught up in what I was doing.
ReplyDeleteBut thank you. I love Heather. She's the greatest and I really would not be here unless it were for her tough love <3