Dear Time, please speed up...

This has been the

l - o - n - g - e - s - t
week of
my
life.



A week ago today, he got arrested.
And two weeks from tomorrow, he has court.
But sometime before then, I plan to visit him.

Because this last week has gone by
s - o
s - l - o - w.

Every night as I lay in bed
a - l - o - n - e
I take a deep breath
because I made it through one more day without him.

Another day
d - o - w - n.
Still a few more to go, though...

Oh boy. Time needs to speed UP.

Torn at the seams.

Dear God
I miss him so much.

Over the past few months,
he became my everything & I became his.
And now he's gone,
taken completely away from me.
So here I sit, here I stand, here I sleep... alone.
Without him after so long of us being inseperable.
And it hurts like hell.

But now I think, he must feel the same way.
There he is, freedom completely taken away.
And though he might have a bunkie,
he, too, is... alone.
So together, we are alone in this.
Together, in spirit and together, because our hearts are intertwined and because through everything so far, he has left my side not one time. And I certainly will not leave his.
He is far too precious to me.

And now I realize that this seperation is not permanent and dare I go as far to say that it doesn't even exist.
Because I believe, for the first time in awhile, in love.
I believe that the past few months built both of us up so that we would be able to make it through this time.
No matter how long it's going to be.
He stayed right by my side throughout everything we have endured thus far and I refuse for this setback to be the reason as to why I leave his...

I feel alone, yes.
But the bonds of love remain strong and intact.
And I will forever stay by his side.
No matter what.

My thoughts, prayers and love go out to him, my Papi.
I hope and pray that you are okay and that you grow stronger everyday. I will come to you as soon as I can. I love you.

Papi.

A lot of people are talking, and a lot of what they have to say is unnecessary.
They don't know what goes on between you and I, they only see and they hear. But they don't really know.

You know that I love you, and I know that you love me too.
It's just that there is something that we love, maybe just a little more than eachother.
Despite that though, we have a good thing going.
You are good for me. You put me in line, you straighten me out and you check me when needed. You are there for me constantly, you adore me endlessly and you show your love to me always.
We have conversations naturally and I love that we talk about anything and everything under the sun.
You point out what I need to change, but you have never left me because that list of change is overwhelming to you. No, you stick it out with patience. And I love you for that.

I know that I have a lot to work on, okay? I know.
And I know it's not always easy and that I put you through hell sometimes. I know.
But I love you. I do. And I always will. You are my everything & I never want to lose you.

Please continue to stick it out with me. We have a good thing going. The ends just need to be tightened up a bit.